Fiona's diary entry:
it’s me again. So much happened. I don’t know how to put it in words. Since Jonas has been gone there was a big change in our community. I do not really understand the causes why
it was Jonas who had to go away. Why him of all the people. How could something like that happen, something that has never happened before? How could it happen without the
omniscient Elders knowing everything about it? But let me start from the beginning:
After Jonas had disappeared awave of something very intensive and strong overwhelmed all the citizens of our community. It came all of a sudden. Some stood simply shouting with eyes wide with terror, others were lying about with wet faces while some were laughing ceasless like being out of their minds. Moreover unidentifiable extreme spots appeared to our sight between the familiar grey and some of us perceived strange noises. But the Giver regained control quickly. He brought order into the chaos and explained to us, who were extremely confused, in a soothing way what had happened. He told us everything about colours, music and, most important, about feelings. It sounded unbelievable but it explained the circumstances. By means of what he called “memories” he step by step got us used to every single feeling. This change makes every new day something special and exciting. Although it hurt a lot at first, I wouldn’t like to do without it any more, because in my opinion there is a balance between good and bad feelings. I don’t think Jonas disappeared without any reason. I think there is a close relation between Gabe’s and his leaving and the change that has taken place here. Perhaps it was his plan. If so I’m grateful to him. Now it is getting possible to everyone of us to make individual decisions and to go our own ways ....
- you just feel much more lively. What I know for sure in this chaotic time is that since Jonas has been gone I feel hole inside of me and I think it .... hurts?
The Giver explained to me that I miss him. I wish he’s alive somewhere and that he sometimes thinks of me. Thanks to all these incidents the thought has been growing in me that there is another world, in which feelings existed much longer and in which Jonas is right now. It is a funny hope that these two worlds will become one one day and so I will see him again.
Maybe some time I will be brave enough to find out about all of this. Til then I’m simply curious what will happen here.
Well, we’ll see